One thing you can't deny is that when God wants your attention, He'll be sure to get it. It's really just up to you to pay attention to what He is saying. God has been gently nudging me for a while now and no matter how much he nudged, I wanted to make every excuse about it not being time. "I'll do this after this happens...", "I'm gonna start that in just a bit...", "I'll clear my plate a little when...". However, recently, God said, "NOW!" He didn't ask me to make the move in a little while after every thing fell into place perfectly, He asked me to make the move NOW...actually, He asked me a few months ago, but I'm just now getting around to it.
I've been carrying a lot on my plate. More than I can handle. I didn't want to let anyone down, I didn't want to lose a little income, I didn't want to let go and just trust that just maybe God knew what He was asking of me. At the end of 2014, I prayed to God to give me a word for this year. The word he gave me was TEACH. At the time, I had no clue what that meant. I went on to volunteer for things at church, I put forth more effort in teaching my kids little trades, etc. It wasn't until I entered into the New Year that I came to realize that he wanted me to teach my daughter. I pulled her out of school and began homeschooling her. The amazing thing is that she began to learn like she had never learned before.
Ironically, at the same time, I knew God was asking me to pull my youngest son out and homeschool him as well. I didn't feel fit. I made up every excuse. He was speech delayed, he needed the extra help, the professionals knew better. However, in the last few months, it has become more and more obvious that God wanted him to be home with me. My sons behavior changed, he began to hate school, he would cry and beg to not go, he constantly asked when I would start homeschooling him.
The time is NOW.
I had this idea in my head that things all had to line up just right. That things had to be perfectly organized and all my ducks had to be in a pretty, little row. The reality is, like the saying goes, "God doesn't call the prepared, He prepares the called."
In 2 short weeks, we are going on a new adventure. One where I will be working from home, studying for a Real Estate exam, and teaching my children in the way God has asked me to...for a while now. I'm excited and so are my kids. We are embracing the NOW that God has given us.
